Philadelphia Feb. 15. 1796
My Dearest Friend
This Morning I have your favour of the 3d.
[Abigail to John, 03 February 1796]
which raised my Spirits again after the mortification of passing the whole of last Week without one.
Benjamin has grown very dull. No Abuse. No lies, no Terrors, no Panicks, no Rant -- in comparison of what he used to have.
The Subject which you think will excite all their feelings is well known to every body in public Life, but is talked of by nobody: but in Confidence.
I could name you however as good Federalists and as good Men as any, who think and say that he will retire and that they would, if they were he. And who would not? I declare upon my honour I would. After 20 Years of such Service, with such Success, and with no Obligation to any one, I would retire before my Constitution failed, before my Memory failed, before my Judgment failed, before I should grow peevish and fretfull, irresolute or improvident. I would no longer put at hazard a Character so dearly earned at present to uncontaminated, but liable by the Weakness of Age to be impaired in a Moment.
He has in the most solemn manner Sworn, before many Witnesses at various times and on several occasions, and it is now by all who are in the Secret considered as irrevocable as the Laws of Meads and Persions. Your Comments to Knox were perfectly delicate and perfectly wise. You need not trouble to think of the subject. In my Opinion there is no more danger in the Change than there would be in changing a Member of the Senate and whoever lives to see it will own me to be a Prophet. If Jay or even Jefferson
and one or the other it certainly will be, if it is not the next in Line
if the Succession should be passed over, should be the Man, the Government will go on as well as ever. Jefferson
could not stir a step in any other system than that which is Jay would not wish it. The Votes will run for three Persons -- two I have mentioned. The third being the Heir apparent will not probably be wholly overlook'd
. If Jefferson
and Jay are President and Vice President, as is not improbable, the other retires without Noise, or Cries or Tears to his farm. If either of those two are President and the other Vice President, he retires without Murmur or Complaint to his farm, forever. If this other should be P. and Jefferson or Jay V. President, four Years more if Life lasts, of Residence in Philadelphia will be his and your Portion, after which Tie shall probably be desirous of imitating the Example of the present Pair: or if by reason of thoughts
and Fortitude Eight Years should be accomplished, that is the Utmost Limit of time that I will ever continue in public Life at my rate. Be of good Courage therefore and tremble not. I see nothing to appall me and I feel no ill forebodings or faint Misgivings. I have not the Smallest dread of private Life, nor of public -- if private Life is to be my Portion my farm and my Mare shall employ the rest of my days.
The Money of the Country the Paper Money is the most unpleasant Object I see. This must have a Remedy, and I fear it will be reserved for me to stem the Torrent, a worse one than the Western Rebellion or the opposition to the Treaty.
This is all in Confidence and Affection.
[Endorsement -- see page image]