Fine. To town. Afternoon at home. Evening at the Mansion.
I went to town this morning out of time because I wished to take 316with me Catherine, who is about to begin to put our house in order, which looks as if it needed it enough. My time was accordingly very much engrossed by the different calls upon me in order to get going.
The public seems to continue in agitation about the suspension of specie payments but the resistance to it appears to gain ground which surprises me. Talked with S. C. Gray today who seems in good courage.
Return to dine, where my father joined me in place of my Wife who had gone with my mother to Boston. Continued Menzel afterwards. Evening visit to the Mansion.
Fine. At home. Nothing material. Evening at the Mansion.
I did not make as much out of the morning as I should have done. Kirk occupied me part of the time in planting trees, and I was engaged in other necessary arrangements in advance of winter about the place, a little more. And to confess the truth in addition to all this I did not take to my work kindly. My thoughts lagged heavily.
This morning completed the publication of my three papers upon the Philadelphia Manifesto. If I can judge at all of my productions, I should say they were about as good as any thing I have done with the exception of an occasional error or two of haste, and one of reasoning. But error is always liable to creep into such judgments.
Afternoon, felt so indolent that I read Menzel lazily. The long evenings now create a great waste of time. Evening at the Mansion. Fanny continues an invalid there.
Fine. To town. Return to dine at the Mansion, where also Evening.
I went to town this morning and was taken up as usual with matters pertaining to the removal of my family to town which I now think we will delay until the middle of next week. Mr. Curtis called in about business of Mrs. Boylston’s Agency and Mr. W. T. Andrews on behalf of the nominating Committee of the Whig party to notify me of the selection of me as one of their candidates for the House of Representatives this year, and to inquire if I would accept. I was so situated as not to be able to give many minutes to reflection but the possibility of such an event had been in my mind within three or four years past and circumstances have rather conduced to strengthen me in the inclination long existing to decline the nomination.317
The place is of little consequence, surrounded as it is with a host of colleagues, the year is one in which a multitude of little harrassing local questions will come up, to take sides about which is unavoidable and yet is throwing away a portion of influence that might be used to better purpose, and above all the Whig party now on it’s last legs in the State is endeavouring to enlist me as a soldier after I have fought my own way to reputation of some sort against it’s pressure when it was strong. I therefore declined verbally to Mr. Andrews, and as I was so situated as not to be able to explain the reasons I wrote him a short letter before leaving town.1 This is not done without deliberation. But inasmuch as it may have the effect of putting me out of political life forever I consider it of importance. Political life is not of itself at this time and in this country an object of reasonable desire so far as happiness is concerned. Nothing but a sense of duty to the public can conquer my sense of this truth, and inasmuch as that can be more effectively performed in my belief by my remaining a perfectly independent citizen than by taking such a situation I know of no principle in the way of pursuing my inclination. Thus much for this business but having so decided, it is incumbent upon me not to vacillate nor to fall into temptation. The whisperings of vanity or ambition should not be allowed to overbear the injunctions of wisdom and prudence. But I ought not to conceal my gratification at the nomination, for it very far removes from my mind an impression long entertained that injustice was done me by my fellow citizens in Boston against none of whom have I ever to my knowledge done any hostile act.
Return to dine but at my father’s, where I found that little Fanny was not so well. This is a distressing case enough.2 Evening there also, only reading a little of Menzel in the interval. Mrs. T. B. Adams came down on a business also of a distressing kind,3 so that my spirits were under something of a weight.
To William T. Andrews, LbC, Adams Papers.
See entry for 2 Nov., below.
She had that day been advised to undergo surgery for cancer (JQA, Diary).