Morning reading Cicero before and Blackstone after breakfast. Received a letter from
my Mother in very good spirits and felt so myself. Afternoon at Mr. Frothingham’s
to see Abby and drank tea there. Evening, dressed and called for Abby and Julia Gorham
to go to Mr. Homer’s1 ball. He is not tip top but there were many fashionable people there. I met Allyne
Otis who is here on a short visit to his father. He looks much the same as usual.
I enjoyed myself quite tolerably. There was a formal Supper. The house is magnificent,
and although there was not sufficient light to give the proper excitement, it was
twelve before I got to bed.
Morning passed principally at Mrs. Frothinghams with Abby. Nothing particular occurring.
Afternoon at the Office. Richardson called and instead of writing as usual I conversed
with him and Davis. Evening passed with Abby. My feelings in relation to her are at
present very singular. They have been coming to the present point for months past.
Their actual condition I do not disclose to myself as I feel disposed to defer disagreeable
ideas. My love for her is now such that life without her would hardly be worth a moments
thought, and I am still doubtful whether with her I am doing her the Justice which
is due. My prayers are constantly offered up on this subject. May they avail me. The
Rubicon has been long passed.
Wrote this morning to my Mother.1 Afterwards called to see Abby and wasted the morning at the office. After dinner
went to Medford in Mr. Brooks’ Carriage with him and Mrs. B., with Abby of course.
Conversed as usual with Abby all the evening.
Attended Meeting this morning. Heard a Mr. Farley, a disciple of Cambridge, and better
than usual.1 Little else during the day, read the North American and allowed myself to get foolishly
dull which affected Abby. This will not do. Mr. Angier,2 Dr. Swann,3 Miss Mary Hall and her brothers, all of Medford, passed the evening here.