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JQA Diary, volume 36 3 May 1829
JQA Suzie Ting

3. VII. Sunday.

Judge Cranch, Mr Frye and Dr Huntt called again successively to day and from them and from two New-York newspapers which Mr Frye brought with him I gleaned some further 175particulars of that fatal Event, the loss of my Dear, Dear Son George— I see the causes of it distinctly— The motion of the Stage and Steamboat in twenty-four hours had produced a fever, with a rushing of the blood to the brain— He had complained of it in the Evening: said he wished the motion would be great enough to produce Sea-sickness; and spoke of stopping a day at New-York to be bled— He had been pleasant and cheerful in conversation with several of the passengers in the afternoon; but got up in the Night, and spoke to two or three persons in a manner indicating a wandering mind— And thus walking on the upper deck of the boat; alone and in the dark; it pleased the disposer of all Events, to take him to himself— Blessed God! forgive the repining of mortal flesh, at this mysterious dispensation of thy will! forgive the wanderings of my own mind under its excruciating torture! have compassion upon the partner of my Soul; and bear her up with thine everlasting arm— Deep have been her afflictions heretofore— But this! oh this! stay thy hand God of Mercy— Let her not say My God! My God! why hast thou forsaken me?— Teach her and me; to bear thy holy will; and to bless thy name— Judge Cranch told me that Dr Watkins arrived here, under arrest yesterday, at the suit of the Government— He was in the same boat from Providence with my Son and was returning to this City when he was arrested at Philadelphia— He was taken yesterday before judge Cranch, who committed him to prison, requiring bail to the amount of 5000 dollars which he was unable to give— Mr F. B. Key was requested by the President to assist the District Attorney Swan, who is now absent in the prosecution; and told the judge they might perhaps require bail, to a larger amount— Judge Cranch brought home, Abigail S. AdamsMrs Frye went home with Mr Frye; but Mrs. W. S. Smith came out to spend some days with her Sister— Human suffering can go but one degree beyond what she endures, and from which I humbly supplicate the throne of Grace that she may be spared— Last Sunday at Church, Dr Laurie read the 14th. Chapter of Job, with an impressiveness of manner which struck me exceedingly. How much more deeply is it brought home to me now— It was proper that some one of the family should go to New-York, to receive possession of my poor Sons effects, and to ascertain if it might be possible to recover his remains— I was desirous of going myself, and had so determined, but at the earnest recommendation of Mr Frye consented to let my Son John go, in my place, remaining myself here, with my dear and most afflicted wife. John wrote to my nephew W. S. Smith, to ask him to go with him, and received an answer that he would.